So I had a dream last night!
and in this dream all the characters I created came to life!
Dream come true since I was a kid!
I mean who doesn't want that?!?
Unless you create life threatening monstrosities that could nom your face.
o^ o Am guilty of that.
Not noming face, but the other bit!
My friend showed me she helped a person on here, and I was like oh cool!
but it brought back all these memories of the fun I had while here.
I then had a long serous talk to myself.
why did I decide to quit, and go on such a long absence from a place that was once my dwelling!?
then I noticed just how much of a game
i was stuck in with myself. I felt the need for others to love my artwork, no not just my artwork but me!
I wanted and craved attention!
i really liked it! Who didn't like a little from someone right? I got caught up in favouriting for attention, and liking art I scrolled though and favourited without even another thought. I started to feel bad cause this was another's work and I really used them in a way to get attention! o^ o I feel bad for doing that.
I guess I seriously just lost sight of why I even joined in the first place. Damn.
Once I noticed that I've been drawing for the sake of creating my own world! For the sake of imagination, curiosity, and just plain out cause I love it!
I had some painful triggers this place brought back - but it was cause of mistakes I've made and things I couldn't seem to get over.
It's really been a year away from this place I called home.
I hope whoever reads this will understand that this place can be as much a home to you as it's been to me. I really want to think the kind, supportive people I've met here.
you've been like family when I felt alone. Thank you! You guys know who you are.